Happiness Undefined

Happiness :- Word web Dictionary (installed on my pc) defines it as-

State of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy

OR

Emotions experienced when in a state of well-being.

I usually do not get upset with the things happening around me and most of the time i feel content with whatever i have got. But sometimes, Being Human, My mind starts demanding for more and consequently my heart feels helpless, then expresses that helplessness on my face something similar to this clown below

 

Several times i have felt this way, which makes me poke my nose into friends' life and i don't know why i feel they are much happier than me.. I know.. I know You must be thinking of a well renowned proverb.

" Grass always seems greener on the other side " 

Well, this is the only remedy i use to console myself.

This time i came up with an idea, I thought to conduct a survey kind of thing with my friends so that i can know what makes them happy, whats that hidden treasure which i was unable to find.

I called few of my friends and asked them one simple question with a hope that their answers to this question may give me some hopes about how to be happy or how happiness can be attained. And the Question was :- 

WHAT WAS THE MOST HAPPIEST MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE?

As expected everyone for the time being ran out of words. They were reacting as if they were being accused of hiding Osama Bin Laden into their basement and Obama's sharp nose has sniffed their crime, Now what to do..

After thinking for a while (may be after consulting to hidden Osama), what most of them came up was.. 

" I can not recall any happy moment but yeah if u ask of sad things i can make a endless list."

I got astonished the friends i used to think are happier than me, do not even remember a single moment of their life when they were happy the most, they do not bother to count their blessings but they do remember exactly at what time someone-somewhere had broken their heart or hurt them.

After being pushed a li'l further few of them tried to recall their best or the happiest moments of life as follows:-

-The most happiest moment of my life was when I stood 3rd in 9th standard.

-When I had drinks sitting on the roof of a moving car.. and still managed not to fall.

- I had those moments when i spent my first hard earned salary on booze and girls with my friends.

-When, for the very first time she sat on the pillion seat of my bike, holding me tight and we were flying.

- When my daughter came into this beautiful world and I held her in my arms for the very first time.. that was the most happiest moment of my life.

The very next day one of friends asked the same question to her housemaid  and her story went something like this..

10:40 PM

Someone is knocking hard on the door of semi-concrete house (roof of which clearly suggests that inhabitant of this house never go to bed without saying prayers to god about not to rain in the night while sleeping at least) , in a manner as if trying to break it open with force. A woman of around 25 in age, wrapped in low quality cotton saree with filthy blouse opens the gate and finds a man in his mid forties struggling hard to stand on his feet with half empty bottle in one hand. Stains and the smell from his clothes is indicating that he has just returned from the trip to sewage.

She guides his entry by holding him from the arm and as soon as he gets in, he starts yelling at her with all those abusing words which do not spare even a single family member from her maternal as well as paternal side, Listening to which Manu, their daughter, wakes up frightened. and immediately goes to small area which they call it as kitchen to fetch a glass of water for his angry father. Woman starts preparing his plate of dinner and as soon as she brings the plate near him, He throws the plate with stroke of his arm.

Manu, being scared, hesitates to go near to his father and hides herself behind her mother. In the mean time when he is done with all those abusing words (which he has repeated almost ten times without even taking breath) starts taking out his Belt from the pants.

And... 

It was the very first night since they got married that he put the belt directly into the almirah as soon as he removed it from his pants. 

...and her housemaid said.. This was the MOST HAPPIEST moment of her entire life.







I do not know whether You have got the real meaning of happiness or not but for Me... Since then many things has been changed.. I have started enjoying every single moment of my life and I have learnt to count my blessings. and one question for you too..
What was the most happiest moment of your life? ;-)

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

Thank You

A.D. Arora.

RETURN

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13th April, 2006 ; 00:00 

"Hello.. Hello.. ", He said But did not get any Reply from the other end.. And the Call got disconnected..

Again, He pressed the Green Button on his Nokia 2690 device and the First name in recent dialed was "SHALLY".. He clicked that button again and heard "Unfaithful" by Rihana as its caller tune.. ( "this wasnt her choice..." he was thinking in his mind.. )

"Hello.. Shally.. its Amit here.. Shally.. ", he said with DID-I-Dial-A-WRONG-NUMBER expression. But to no avail.. again no one spoke.. " I know, Its You.. Shally.. say something.. I am really Sorry.. please say something.. "

"Hello...?" She said after a long pause... Her heart was pounding very fast.. and this was the Third drop from her eye..which  fell on the keypad of her laptop.

"Who Amit??", She continued with firmness in her voice.

"Shally.. Amit.. Me.. Dunn you REMEMBER..? ", He replied in an apologetic note

"No..!!" and she disconnected the call..

  and he put the reminder on snooze.

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                       ONE YEAR AGO

13th April 2005; 00:00

"Hi Amit  ", Shally said as soon as she picked up the phone.

"Hi Love..!!, Wish you very Happy Anniversary..", He said with smile on his face.

"Hey you remember it!! you know what.. I LOVE YOU, Amit.." she replied feeling content.

"Love you too darling.. How could I forgot.. 13th of April.. the day when you officialy said YES ...  anyways  now go to sleep.. Do YOU remember we need to meet in the morning.. Sharp 9:30"
"Yup Yup Sir.. I do.. So. Good Night.. See you in the morning.. " and she Disconnected the call.

It seemed a perfect World.. Nothing could be better than that.. Everything was present.. Love, Care, Emotions.. Everything BUT Sleep.. Eyes denied to stay closed.. Because reality was much more Beautiful than Dreams..



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13th April 2005 ; 9:30

"Where are You Amit..? ", She asked in 5 MINS-MORE-I-WILL-KILL-YOU tone

"Hey Shally.. Dunn get angry.. Just gimme 3 mins and i will be there in front of You..", He tried convincing her and almost succeeded.


Ten Minutes later, He appeared with bunch of flowers in his hand.. winked at her and they hugged each other..

"It doesn't seem we have completed TWO Years.. It just seems as if we met the last day.. ", Shally said while holding his hand tight and they started walking towards restaurant

" Yeah!! and trust me this was most wonderful time of my life.."

They both took their seats, she placed the bouquet on the chair left to her and ordered for Pizza.


"Shally!! if i ask you to describe one special moment.. what would be that? " he just asked out of curiosity.

"Every Second spent with you was eternity.. n it will be.. I cant live without you", She replied with tears in her eyes.

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 25th June 2005 ; 18:30

"Ma! I don't want to get married to that old guy.. Please Ma! I will study and will earn money more than that old guy whom you are selling me to.. Please MA! "  She said to her Mom while Crying hard for her life..

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26th June 2005 ; 06:30

"Amit, please take me with you.. I don't wanna marry him.."

"Shally!! I will marry You... Don't worry ! I will take you to my home with me.. But Please Stop Crying.. I cant see you like this.."

"Amit!! Please save me..please.." and only tears could find the way out instead of words

"Dear.. we will leave today in the evening, meet me at the railway station.. and please smile.." He disconnected the call.


26th June 2005 ; 16:45


She packed her bag.. left a letter for her Mom under the pillow

            "MA, I am leaving this house.. and will not return back.. I always treated you as my real Mother But you...  I am sorry MA.. please forgive me... "

 and left the home ..




26th June 2005 ; 17:15

They both reached at the railway station and hugged each other as if they had not met since ages. Train was scheduled to depart at 17:45. Amit had arranged the tickets with the help of his friend.

"Here are the tickets.. put them into your bag.." He said while giving tickets in her hand and they both boarded the train.


Train started to move... Farther the train moved from the station nearer she felt herself to happiness.

" Thank you Amit, If you would not be there.. I would have committed suicide.. I wanna spend every moment of life with you..",Tears blurred her view again but this time, these were out of joy. 

"Hey don't say thanks!! You are my responsibility.. I am lukcy to have you in my life.." he said and wiped the droplets of tears from her cheeks.. " And you know what.. You look Beautiful only when Smiling ..."

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27th June 2005 ; 05:30


"AMIT.. AMIT..." She shouted but she did not get any reply.

She checked in the washrooms and in the every possible compartment But he was not traceable.. She called on his number.. It was ringing but No one picked up the call.. She called again and again and again... She called innumerable times.. But No one answered.. She was Crying like hell.. Suddenly her Cellphone vibrated.. Yeah It was Amit's Text message..

" Sorry Shally!! I had to get down.. I cant return.. sorry "

  ...and her world did not last anymore.. Dreams she weaved.. shattered like pieces of broken glass.


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13th April 2006 ; 00:10


Reminder on his Nokia 2690 device rang again..

      " Our Anniversary "

but this time he pressed the button indicating DISCARD.. and went to sleep again without thinking much about the whole thing..


13th April 2006 ; 16:30

"Hey Dude, come to my farm house with in one hour. and no excuses this time..", Vicky said

"Vicky, No man!! I cant come.. You know that, I dont like all those things.. ", Amit said refusing his proposal

"Damn man! Its is my birthday .. you forgot my birthday in the first place and now you are saying You cant come.. Okay Bro...." He replied in anger and seemed more like a complaint

"Oh Shit!! I am Sorry yaar.. Happy Birthday Buddy!! But.."

" Now NO BUT only move  your BUTT and come here.. You are comin' mean You are Coming, Be here in one hour,See you" He Disconnected the call.


13th April 2006 ; 18:00

"Welcome buddy!!" Ravi greeted him as soon as he entered in the farm house..
"Hey Ravi.. Wz up mayen!! " Amit asked and they both shaked hands.
"Amit!!  Take this.. " chinu threw the Bottle of beer towards Amit.

"OH OH OH.. So who else is hiding inside, come out please..." Amit enquired after watching vicky coming out of the kitchen.

" No one is hiding man!! we just Four are here.. and One is about to come.." Ravi replied with a witty smile on his face

"WHO?" Amit Asked with a confused look.

"JUST WAIT and WATCH" chinu replied and everyone started laughing except Amit who was standing in the middle with a DO-I-LOOK-LIKE-A-FOOL expression.

13th April 2006 ; 18:45

Doorbell rang

and Ravi rushed towards the door and in the meanwhile chinu whispered, " I guess She has come "

"Who She ? " Amit asked in confused-cum-angry mode.

"We have arranged a Call Girl..." Chinu smiled and passed a wink to Amit.

"What....?" Amit replied

Before he could utter anything else, his tongue froze, throat went dry, eyes popped Open and Heart started beating as if it was trying to come out of the body.

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27th June 2005 ; 04:30

"Hello MOm! I am taking her home..", Amit said to his mother which seemed more like a request.

"Taking whom...?" She replied

"SHALLY.. Mom.. I talked to you last week about her" he answered.

"So did not YOU get my answer last time.. and its still the same ... You can not marry her.. We have already selected a girl of our level for you" she said furiously.

"Mom! Please, She has left her home.. just to come with me.. " He pleaded.

" Did I tell her to leave? Listen Amit.. If you think WE are nothing to you.. SHE is everything .. then do whatever you want.. But never call me MOM again.. Is that CLEAR" and she hung up the phone..

"Mommmmmmmm" he uttered but no one else was there on the other end to hear.


27th June ; 04:45

He bade her final Goodbye while She was sleeping and got down two stations before the destination.

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13th April 2006 ; 18:48

"Please come in", Ravi invited her while escorting her to the bedroom.

"RAVI... RAVI.." Amit shouted and continued, " Yaar!! please let her go..! Don't do anything with her.."

"Are you F***ing Crazy?.. We have paid 25000 rupees to her.." Vicky shouted

"I will pay the money.. But please tell her to go..." Amit pleaded



" Amit !! It's of No use.. It will not pay any RETURN.. I wished if YOU would have paid 57 times Earlier too..." She held her tears back, went inside and shut the door behind him.

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LOVE IS....

Someone asked me what is love
is it good, is it bad
is it awesome, is it terrible
I honestly didn't know how to answer them.
I finally decided love is the most complicated of all emotions
Love is kind
love is harsh
love is wonderful
love is terrible
love is a cure
love is a sickness
love is LOVE
love is hate
love is meaningful
love is pointless
love shows the best in people
love shows the worse in people
love makes us speak truth
love makes us lie
love understands everything
love confuses everyone
love builds your life
love tears your heart down
love makes you smile
love makes you cry
love makes us cuddle
love makes us hit
love makes the world go round
love makes the world go crashing down
love makes things simple
love makes things impossible
love is always worth it
love is never worth it
love makes us smarter
love makes us stupid
love is enlightening!
love is BLIND
make love not war
make war out of love
love encourages
love scares
love is peaceful
love creates fights
love is soothing
love is tough

...and above all
Love is always worth it
because you become a better person
every time you love someone
from the simplest caring for a friend
to the deepest desire to love someone til the world ends
from the unconditional love of a child
to the complicated love of the gods
there is...no meaning to love
love means...everything

No matter how much it hurts you, or makes you cry
tries your spirit, and splits your soul.
Love is always worth it...because what doesn't kill you
makes you stronger
And however long it takes
you will be, a better person because you lived, though love.
Weren't afraid to make mistakes, choices and try again.
And...above all, loved someone no matter what people thought.
You would die for that person...but you would also live for them.
That...is the true meaning of love...

Do YOU LOve ME ? ?

Do you love me?
Or do you not?
you told me once, but i forgot.
So tell me now, and tell me true, so I can say that I love you.
Of all the girls I've ever met, you're the one, I won't forget.
And if I die before you do, I go to heaven and wait for you.


From the moment I saw you i knew this was true
So damn beautiful my eyes fixated on you.
I wanted to hug you, hold you so tight,
I wanted to tell you this feels so right.
Now i have a voice, my feelings out loud,
A smile on my face so happy and proud.
A boy with a dream and a dream come true,
A boy who has found the one, the one is you!


When I first saw you I was afraid to meet you,
When I first met you i was afraid to kiss you,
When I first kissed you I was afraid to love you,
and now that i love you i am afraid to loose you.


Love is like a river, or maybe a deep blue sea.
Love flows on forever, always and endlessly.
Love is something special, something you can't touch or see.
Love is amazing, this thing I feel for you and you for me.


I'm not afraid of death,
I'm not afraid of dying.
I'm not afraid of heartbreak
and I'm not afraid of crying.
The only thing I fear of ever really coming true,
is living this fearless life without you.


You're the first thing i think of each morning when i rise.
You're the last thing i think of each night when i close my eyes.
You're in each thought, i have and every breath i take.
My feelings are growing stronger with every move i make.
I want to prove i love you, but thats the hardest part.
If i tell you a secret, could it lead to a new start?

55 FICTION

He tried hard to avoid his inner urge but could not resist this time. After all he has also got a Heart, A Heart which goes on melting sometimes.

     He started running and was panting badly by the time he reached near his Dad,recalled few words which his Dad told him once and thought... 

"Sorry Dad, I know we are Poor.. We can't afford Ice-creams"  and took his steps back..
 

GO PORTUGAL GO... !!!!

SOMETHING DEDICATED TO MY FAV TEAM PORTUGAL..

What if we couldn't WIN...
It's not at all a SIN..
What if it wasn't a perfect SWING
but no-one can stop us to SING...

yeah they played WELL...
and made it nothing less dan HELL..
There were chances we could create a BEND...
But.. i know i know... We LOST at the END.. :(

Don't Loose HOPE..
There s Lots of SCOPE..
and I BELIEVE YOU CAN FLY...
I BELIEVE YOU CAN FLY... <3 <3 <3

(coz NO TRAIN TAKES YOU TO PORTUGAL FROM AFRICA... you will have to fly.. )

GO PORTUGAL GO..

Did I Ever Thank YOU!!

I find myself wondering...
Did I give you your due..
For all that you've done for me

Did I ever thank you?

For all of my childhood memories
For helping me deal with life's stresses
For helping me accept my defeats
And celebrate my successes?

Or for teaching me the value of hard work,
Good judgement, courage, and being true
The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared
Did I ever thank you? 

         If I have forgotten, I'm thanking you now
  You taught me right from wrong....
I hope you know how much you're loved and appreciated
I hope you, instinctively, knew it all along.

 

I LOVE YOU MY DAD!!